Inside the Nealey's household: February 2011

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

Feelings:

I thought 2011 was going to be a great year, and honestly there is nothing that has made it bad. I’m healthy, my husband and family are healthy, I have a roof over my head and food on my plate every single meal. I just feel kind of down. Josh started school in January, and boy has that turned our world upside down. We both feel really good about it, but financially it has taken a toll. Josh, was somewhat given a false pretense from a guy that had “a lot” of work for him. After the Christmas break, something's fell through for the guy, which no longer made the need for Josh like he thought. I’m still working, but the after Christmas the need for me hasn’t been so great, so my hours have been cut. I’ve been looking into a few other jobs, but haven’t found anything I really see I like (Yeah, me being picky).

Josh has one class that is taking a lot of study time. We can’t really afford (time wise) for him to drop the class. So, he is putting all his effort in this class, and I DO mean ALL! He stays up late, which means I go to bed without him often, works on it every free time he has, which rarely means any us times at nights (we use to curl up after dinner and watch our favorite shows, movie, or play a game) . Right after we eat dinner he goes straight to the office to study some more, and I clean up and then go watch shows by myself. It may seem silly and I am sure this is the schedule of a lot of couples, but I like my “night” time with my husband.
So, with the feeling of being “alone” a lot and having to cut back financially I’ve been kind of down. I try to spend time with the Lord, and find joy in the place we are in, but I can’t help but feel like we have taken some steps backwards, even though I know we are taken this road towards a much better future for us. I feel guilty sometimes for the way I feel. Especially when I start thinking how “I’m not sure if we will get a vacation together this year.” Or the fact we can’t have dates outs as much as we use to and even if we could we can barely find the time because Josh needs to study if he isn’t working. I try to remind myself that it won’t be like this forever. One day it will be all over, and he will have a normal job that pays well (Yeah Physical Therapist has a pretty salary) and not every penny will be accounted for.

I’m just trying to find my place in all this. I didn’t think it was going to be this difficult. God has definitely provided for us, but the mix of these few things and some others makes me feel real emotional.

Sorry this is such a random/ depressing type post…. But this is my life at the moment I’m trying to stay optimistic even though I don’t feel like it.

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

GO GREEN BAY!

I have been a Packer fan for over 8 years. One of those things when I was younger and was with a friend and we watched the super bowl and they had won. Over the years I met more and more people that were Packer fans and since then I have been a pretty big fan! Josh is a big college football fan, and for NFL he rooted for the Falcons. I however, stuck with my Packers (so we definitely had a divided house). Anytime I tell people I am a Packers fan they give me the "look" and make some silly comment (I know it's just for fun though). Every game night Josh and I watch it together and he always roots for the opposite team of the Packers.

This year the Packers made it to the super bowl!!!! I have to say I was kind of surprised with them being a wild card and all, but I was beyond excited!!!

My family decided to throw a small Party (which they all cheered for the Packers) and I asked Josh Sunday morning if he was going to root for the Packers or the Steelers, and he replied saying he was going to definitely be a cheese head tonight, good choice, because they WON! They pulled off the winning game the same way they have won the last three games, a pick off!

WHOhoO PACKERS!!!

Mom and I

(One of my best friends gave me Tattoo's and London and I covered ourselves in them for fun, I know one thing I will never get a tattoo on my arm, it looks horrible, but I had to oblige to the nephew and were he told me to put it).